The Introduction

I am still working on this blog, a lot has yet to be done but it is coming along quite nicely I must say.

F.G.S. Background: I am twenty years-young and I live in Los Angeles, California. The past year of my life, from what I can even remember, has been a personal and emotional hell. It probably sounds stupid but I broke up with this guy that I had been with for two years and went through a fucking lot with. It was a very hard thing to get over, and I'm not sure if all those wounds are healed yet. I dated two guys after, each was a mistake (of course) and hooked up with even more because apparently when I get all heart-broken I turn into a slut. Anyway, I experimented with drugs, a lot of drugs, but have been sober for about three months and plan to stay that way. All the drugs did was temporarily mask the problem at hand, and after that I felt I felt a lot worse. I also started drinking a lot, and still enjoy a drink here and there but I have serverly cut back on that as well. Along with all of the stupidity above I ate my feeling hardcore, I gained about 25lbs this year, which is very bad. Coming to the light at the end of the shitty tunnel I created for myself I realized I needed to change my life around, or maybe just actually begin it.

There you have it, the 100% truth about me this past year and the journey to this particular point. Ready for a little more?

I have never been this big, clocking in at 173lbs (I am 5'8") and it scares the piss out of me. I wear a size 12 US jean right now, as opposed to the size 8 US from last year this time. My goal size is a size 4-6 US and a toned body. All I know is that I can not and will not let myself get any bigger, for personal and health reasons. The goal of this diet/exercise adventure is about slimming down and getting healthier. I want to be healthy, have toned arms, and lots of energy. I do not want to be a skeleton with skin, I do appreciate the way designer garments flow of such a figure but I love curvy women. I love hips, butts, and boobs. Aside from the weight issue I am having a tough time emotional and that will be discussed here to and of course it will all be relevant. I am also trying to quit smoking cigarettes, it hasn't been so hard yet but I know it will probably get more tempting.

I have a lot of work to do on this still but each entry will probably highlight my physical and emotional states each week as well as my diet and work-out routines, pictures, goals, and anything else I find relevant. I also plan to write a lot about my own ideas on body image/self-esteem. It will all be, above all, honest.